Weblog

Thursday, 25 September 2008

  • Vacuous Density

    FOLLOWING AN ARTICLE online about Sarah Palin's "press conference" in NYC - four questions of which she answered only three, by the way - was this little gem of a comment:

    September 25th, 2008 12:44 pm ET
    I believe Sarah is right in avoiding the press ( if indeed she is) because the press is trying to trip her up any way they can so that the Dems come out in the lead. Sarah is a far better VP candidate than old joe ( with his feet in his mouth) any day. She has the experience and will handle anything thrown at her. However, because she is a woman, she is being subjected to a sexiest bias and a more stringent scrutiny than joe. She is being held to aq different level of attention. How she looks, what she says, her family, her job as govenor, her experience, etc., etc. On the other hand - Joe Biden, who cares what he looks like, how often his foot is in his mouth, his family, his job - how long he's been in the senate - ( ???? what's he done in that time?), etc., etc. Sarah will step out and up to the plate when the time is right. This may not be when the media would like, but soooo what! Get over it. GO SARAH

    Um, really?  I mean really really?  What exactly IS the "sexiest" bias, hmm? And just what special experience does she have that makes her a "far better VP candidate" than Joe Biden?  I'm really curious.  I'm sorry, but people should take intelligence tests before they're allowed to comment on internet stories.  And before they're allowed to vote.  The American public has proven itself to be quite the paradox: vacuous and dense at the same time.

    Of course, most of the comments on the article were incredibly critical of Palin's press corps debut, and rightly so. When asked by CNN if she agreed with the way the Bush Administration has handled the war on terrorism, and whether she would do anyting differently, she had this to say:

    I agree with the Bush administration that we take the fight to them. We never again let them come onto our soil and try to destroy not only our democracy, but communities like the community of New York. Never again. So yes, I do agree with taking the fight to the terrorists and stopping them over there.

    Soooo, she expressly AGREES with the Bush Administration, and she implies that she WOULDN'T do anything differently.  Oh Sarah, you maverick you! You crazy agent of change!  You go on with your bad self

    She was then asked whether she thinks our presence in Iraq and Afghanistan is inflaming Islamic extremists.  Her answer? 

    I think our presence in Iraq and Afghanistan will lead to further security of our nation, again, because the mission is to take the fight over there. Do not let them come over here and attempt again what they accomplished here, and that was some destruction. Terrible destruction on that day. but since September 11, Americans uniting and rebuilding and committing to never letting that happen again.

    Answer the question much, Governor? It's really a simple 'yes' or 'no' question.  The question of whether our presence in that region increases the security of the U.S. is an entirely different question; one that was not asked, I might add. 

    I'm sure Palin has some original thoughts in her head. I really do.  But I've seen not a shred of evidence of them, and frankly, the second in command of the most powerful nation on the planet really should to be able to think on his or her feet. And if Palin's party handlers are preventing her from showing her mettle, either a) she needs to take the bull by the balls and tell them to get the fuck out of her way, or b) it's a good bet she really doesn't have any and we'll be up shit's creek if her geriatric running mate is elected.

    As a final note, this post-article comment made me snort my coffee:

    September 25th, 2008 12:38 pm ET
    Sarah!! Sarah!!!! Over here…
    Thank you. Sarah, I can see the MOON from my house. Do you think that qualifies me to work for NASA?

    Tee hee. 

     

Sunday, 14 September 2008

  • Immobilized, part 2

    I'm feeling trapped by parenthood.  I sometimes think it would be better if I let Ro's dad care for her full time.  I don't feel like I'm doing a good job parenting.  I'm short tempered and impatient.  I criticize her too easily.  I find her annoying and unlikeable sometimes (more than sometimes, truth be told). 

    So I just disengage; I find myself throwing my hands up and turning my back on her, and I don't know how to stop doing that.  It's killing me.  The guilt is overwhelming.  I should be her biggest champion, however, my stupid, overanalytical self always sees the part she plays in whatever misfortune has befallen her and all too often I can't stop myself from pointing it out.  I can't seem to put that aside and wrap my arms around her and hold her and just be there for her. 

    And today, the icing on the cake was my mother, coming over to return a bowl to me, chiding me because I didn't want to eat the "soup" Ro had made on Thursday evening.  She told me Ro was very hurt.  Apparently, it was nothing more than vegetables from the garden floating in a bowl of warm water, however, she'd been playing outside with corn husks making "soup" just before.  I had no idea what was in it and I was preoccupied and really didn't want to put it in my mouth. 

    I feel so damned sad for her, too.  She hasn't any real friends.  She always talks about her best friends.  They're different every day, and while that's pretty normal for 7 year olds, I also know that she's very bossy and clutzy and hard to like and so she puts kids off.  My kid's not popular... that's just the truth of the matter.  And it's so hurtful to see.  I can't afford to live anywhere where there are kids close by to play with and I don't have the ability to do play dates.  I held out a glimmer of hope when we discovered that one of the girls at the bus stop is in her class, but I see the way that girl looks at Ro and never speaks to Ro.  It's obvious she doesn't like Ro. 

    Sometimes I wish I'd never become a mother, not because I don't love my little girl or because I wish she didn't exist, but because it would've spared both of us so much pain. 
  • Immobilized, part 1.

    I'm feeling pretty trapped these days. 

    Although I love my work about 70% of the time, I hate my job.  I really need to be out on my own, but I'm trapped where I am because I don't have the $$ to risk quitting.  I need to develop a clientele and income stream before I can take that step.  Only I can't really do that while I'm working because I have no time to do the networking necessary.  I have some ideas for some seminars I'd like to offer the Biznik community, but I'm too fucking tired most nights to develop the materials I need. 


Friday, 12 September 2008

  • I know some anorexics suffer from "body dysmorphia," a psychiatric disorder in which the affected person is excessively concerned about and preoccupied by an imagined or minor defect in his or her physical features.  In the case of anorexics, it's that they see themselves as fat when, in fact, they are excessively thin.

    Is there some corollary for those of us who are, in fact, fat but still see ourselves as the same size whatevers we were in college (or pre-kids/menopause/thyroid disorder/etc.)?  Cause I think I generally look good, but then I see photos of myself, and in many cases, I'm sort of revolted.  It's getting to the point where I don't want anyone to take photos of me.

    It's not that I *want* to feel this way.  Believe me, I've tried like hell to convince myself that it doesn't matter and that I look great and that I'm sexy, blah blah blah. I've tried to believe it when other people say this to me.   I've tried to accept myself as-is.   I've tried not to compare myself to other women, or even to notice size at all.  I've tried because this shit takes up too much psychic real estate.

    But I'm good and brainwashed.

    I'd have plastic surgery in a heartbeat if I had the money.  Oh, I have no illusions that I would thereafter be thin.  I've never been "thin."  And I have no illusions that I'd actually like photos of myself any better.  Ors that I'd stop comparing my size with that of other women.  Or that I'd free up any psychic real estate.  But at least I'd no longer look like I just gave birth yesterday.

Thursday, 11 September 2008

RuthlessLogic

  • Visit RuthlessLogic's Xanga Site
    • Member Since: 7/25/2002

Weblog Archives

Don't worry - your calendar is here… to see it in action just click "Save" above and refresh the page.

About Me

[no info]

Recommended

[no recommendations]